Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Struggles with Work 12:15 AM

The last few days have been the most frustrating and stressful time of my life. I can say its worse than O levels. I would have guessed Filming was never easy. Its very scary…when everyone else understand what the teacher is saying EXCEPT you. Its even worse when the teacher explains again, the people who don’t understand now understand and YOU STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND. Its super frustrating. I know im a super slow person and this is very bad. Cos in a fast world, I was left behind.

I observed everyone. Nobody reshoots their film unless its really bad. People take about 2, 3 days to film, film once but different location. Mine is, 3 FREAKING TIMES, but same location. Woah omg. Im about to die. My actor are hard to get, timing is super horrible, my planning is worse than a noob, my lead is having exams, sound person cant stay long in the night, haven’t prepared my props yet, my only outdoor shooting was during raining. Its so screwed up man. More and more problems arise, so much until my brother cant find a word to cheer me up.

Worries of life overwhelm me by miles until I find myself further and further away from my First Love. My life was becoming meaningless by the seconds and I told myself, I cant go on anymore…. In this difficult and seemingly impossible struggle, I sacrificed my sleeping time, came downstairs, on the fan and sat in the darkness. I told God, ‘is there a slightest hope?’

I so much so wanted to curse and swear but I knew fully, the Devil would have won. But how can I not swear, how can I not curse even when things got so so bad? I held it in myself, for so long. So I rant and rant on to God, in the midst of darkness. I poured my heart out, there was nothing that I hid, ‘how God, how? I cannot go on anymore. So close to give up, nothing is better, even if I surrender this short film, nothing will happen. I cannot find a way that you can solve my problem. God, I am stuck’.

Then I stop. I waited for 10 minutes. Yeah, I heard nothing. No even the slightest sound. There was no reply. I took a deep breath. I cried, and cried so hard, tears and sadness are inevitable. Then I realized, the hardest thing was to wait silently. A son’s heart crying to the Father, ‘Father, no matter the cost, no matter the problem, I just wanna say, im still here. I still love you’. And I cried even more, knowing that surrendering was the hardest and only thing I could ever submit. Its true, even though I poured my heart out, even though I took leap out of my comfort zone, even though I surrendered, God didn’t say a word.

We always thought that when we give ourselves to God, God will speak to us and lead and bring us through. Well, I can say, God didn’t say a word. Nothing changed, my problems are still the same. It didn’t disappear or vanished after that cry. Everything continues. Time still moves on. But the only thing I felt, was a short peace of silence. But I can tell you, that’s when the smallest light shines the brightness when all other lights are off.


Movie Review- Shutter Island
Rating- 8.7/10__ 4 stars
Director Martin Scorsese collaborates with Leonardo D again in this Mind-Manipulating movie. It starts off at a U.S marshal investigating a case where a dangerous patient escapes from the facility. Things get a little annoying when people are unwilling to cooperate with the marshals and everyone cannot give a truthful answer. Teddy Daniels (Leonardo D) suspects that his coming is a trap and becomes paranoid that he can trust no one. Stunning twist at the end that will leave you finding for more explanations. Not that the movie is so complicated until you don’t understand what on earth is happening, but rather on what you can conclude in the movie at the end. The movie will capture you and manipulate in thinking everyone is the enemy but its not. I have the say the acting of Leonardo still needs work as he cant cry yet and taking into consideration that the movie was shot 2 years ago which was edited and release this year. Recommended for those who loves suspense and thriller and investigation. A nice delivery of a thriller, good job Scorsese!


Saturday, June 19, 2010
Past Favourites 12:49 AM

26-04-2010__Monday
In IS Jumpstart Programmer.
In one of my modules, we were doing a roller coaster. Well, I wouldn’t say we really did a good job but I can say we did good enough. Indeed, ours was the smallest roller coaster. Got some pic on it. Nothing much to update, after the design, we just present it and he went home. Well, for me, I stayed in sch to read and go for CCA.







love this shot




Cell BBQ
One of the rarest event, Cell BBQ. The good thing is that we don’t have to pay for the BBQ. Or I don’t recall paying for it. It was actually very good and I get to set up. I didn’t set up the fire though, only the charcoal. Oh man, its been too long since I had BBQ. Wanted to invite some friends but they were not free. So we played guitar Hero but I totally sucked at that game. Take some cool candid shots but not using my phone. In the end, we played Halo 3 and omg! I keep dying, I never play Playstation until I forgotten how to use it. Love melted marshmallow loads. They are my favorite for every BBQ. It was rather the best thing that happen to Cell however, I thought I could have done better to bold with the others. After that, my Cell leader told me she was going to Japan.





purple fire!!






Recent News
I love my course in FSV. My class is an awesome class. It has a mixed characteristics for my classmates and yes, we do a lot of stupid stuff as well. Right now, filming is taking up a lot of my time and as u know, my time management sucks. Funny class I have here. They even film me singing. Yeah… the best and dumbest thing they have ever done is to film how cool we are IN FRONT OF THE FREAKING ENIGEERNING BLOCK. Omg! Everyone were like looking at us. And we wish to say they chose the wrong course. Yeah, very ego. And I did not say it! Then we did a running handcam shot. Super nice, I have to admit. But the real shot was a little bad. The rehearsal part was nice.

And at last, my 3 min short movie is done. Not yet edited but im just so glad its done. Must do my best not to be so ambitious. I just thank God its over.

Movie Review- Clash of the Titans (2010)
Rating- 8/10__3 stars

By the director of Unleash and Transporter 2, this movie is counted as a disappointment. Tons of efforts was put into it but it just didn’t bring out feeling that the viewers would want to watch it again. The visual graphics are pretty cool, but too much of it, the movie becomes very CGI-ed, and the fighting scenes will look unrealistic. For those who have not watched the classic version, they would probably think it was not very good as well. The storyline compared to the classic to totally off, Perseus is supposed to fall in love with the princess so he will go and kill the kraken. He’s not supposed to kill the kraken just to have revenge on Hades. It becomes like a typical Hollywood movie with revenge, fight here fight there and tada, a happy ending… no! it’s not it. And the words the people say are not even appropriate. In olden times, people don’t say ‘fail’, they say ‘fall’. Like, ‘’when the men fall’’, not ‘when men fail’. And no one can say harsh words like ‘‘Hell, or Bitch’’. I mean, it just does not go well with old times. If you ask me, I would have push the blame on the writer. True enough, there is non-stop action but its just too fast. Every deaths is very fast, there is no Cerberus(two-headed dog) and the scorpions are supposed to come from Medusa’s blood. Its so messed up. Good use of slow motion but there are still some edgy times. The thing is, the mission was supposed to be near impossible but it seems as if the characters themselves are quite brainless and charge aimlessly. The more you watch it, the more I think its just brawns and no brains. I would give this a miss. This will show mostly all remakes cannot beat over the original.



Monday, June 7, 2010
All in a Day 7:25 PM

24 – 04- 2010__ Saturday

Surviving a 24 hours with 2 hours of sleep
I agreed to help Ben in some video editing. I thought maybe it was pretty cool and I also noticed that Ben was alr very tired, he helped us to lead worship in Cell and he got many many more stuff to do. I could see he really needed some rest. So I decided to help him. It was alr 11 but I told myself, I must help. I pack my stuff and told my mum about it. I reached his home at near 12. Then Ben showed me to i-movie, a pretty lousy movie maker but nonetheless, it was new to me. After a long time of figuring here and there, I can start to edit. Ben was super tired so he went to sleep first. He told me to wake him up at 4am but I didn’t want to. I would know Ben would be very tired throughout the whole day and I didn’t want him to tire himself too much.

Even though he doesn’t mind and so, I just don’t want him to do that, I would rather tire a lazy person like me than do nothing and others tire themselves out. The only thing that accompanied me was Ben’s dog who are very active. The shots are very limited and the angles were not so wonderful but still, I have to make the best out of it. The next problem, what about the freaking music?! So I gotta find out music to suit the movie. I don’t care if the lyrics suck, as long as it match the movie, I will put it in. Its like creating something out of nothing. In fact, its quite tough. So I spent about 4 hours editing a short 3 video. It was 5 am. I just lie on the floor and stare at the light, the next thing I know, I slept and woke up at 7. I look up, oh no! I forgot to put subtitles. But Ben told me I did a lot and he was thankful for it. He wanted to repay me somehow so he gives me a small gift. APP IT. But that was not the main reason, my main reason is only one. As God freely care and love for me, a lazy, undeserving kid, then I must also freely give to others who needs it, not want.
a walk in the streets, at 3am






At 9am, I have to rush to Ngee Ann Poly for archery. Reach there and crap! I didn’t bring my coupon so I got to pay in full cash. WTC. Well, archery was great. I still suck but look at the bright side, my team got 3rd place!! Cool eh!! The first two are all girls so in short, my team was the BEST boy team for archery. Nothing much and detailed about practice, but there is some pic.






Movie Review- How to Train your Dragon

Rating- 9.1/10__ 4 stars

I never thought this movie would make a huge success but when I first watched it, I was so excited and couldn’t stop praising it. It was just simply outstanding. It puts laughter on people, it put smiles as the Dragon is real cute, and it brings joy as it has a really joyful, happy ending. I just love happy endings when it comes to animation movies. Though some drawings of the Dragons are a little awkward and out-of-proportion, what the heck, its still a movie. The dragons seen in the movie have a weird mixture of cats and lizards. But their actions are sure to bring laughter to anyone. Its about a young boy who is a coward, in a Viking Village, and he dares not kill one of the most deadliest dragon, Night Fury. Then it comes to mind that that dragon also did not kill him, which brings him on the edge to discover and find out the reason. It dawns upon him that Dragons are misunderstood by the Vikings and he tries to stop and convince that they both should be friends. A very touching and cliché storyline of Finding Yourself but it never fails to keep audience wanting for more. Night Fury named Toothless, is the most well-drawn as compared to the other dragons, which explains why most people love him. After watching the movie, I somehow have a want to keep a dragon as a pet. I mean, they just look cute. A different and odd way of viewing dragons but nevertheless, worth watching. Highly recommended for all people, both young and the old. Its been a long time since I watch such an enjoyable animation movie.



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