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chen sheng and alan

robert

winston and alan

Then I don’t know where to have lunch so I just bought fries and went around the airport. We took a sky train to T3. then when we got there, we saw this dam cool racing car. It was actually a game, a so-called ‘real’ game cos u really sit in a car and drive. The game felt very real cos when u hit a wall, the whole car vibrates or something like that, haha. We walked around. I told boon kim I need to get home fast cos I want to watch some movies since my dad bought some new DVDs back. Then afterwards, boon kim told me ‘shit! We’re lost’. We don’t know where to go too. Then we walked and walked, soon we saw the train to the city. When we were about to take the escalator down, we looked to the side… Shit! We’re back where we came from. We only need to take a few steps to the right and we would have gotten the train. Oh dam, I don’t believe this. I thought we were in some movie doing an act about luckiness. Cos our luck was way beyond the hook! On the train, I received a very shocking message. I was very lost. I told boon kim that I need to go home cos I got no mood for anything.

boon kimy

on the way to T3

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i have seriously no idea who this girl is. i just randomly took this pic

I called James. Well, lets say thank God James is straight forward. He really point out my mistakes and try to make things right again. I don’t know what I’ll become without him. he has many things for me and sometimes, I wished there was some way to pay him back. Some way…. Since the truth, I knew my mistakes. I think so hard on how to make things right again. So James called me again and told me to relax. I felt like telling him, how on earth can I relax at times like this? Im so lost and confused, to relax is almost an impossible thing to do. I was getting increasingly frustrated but James still told me to calm down and not to worry. Well, I gotta agree with him.
But my day isn’t done yet. I had to go for tuition. I was thinking… I thought there was no tuition but my bro told me there was. So I felt freaking reluctant to go for tuition. And u know what? There was no freaking tuition!!! Omg! So I just came for nothing. What the hell!!! I don’t dam believe this. I just freaking wasted my time. I was really really really disappointed. What a freaking shit day. We end tuition early duh, then my dad brought the family out to eat some herbal chicken. The food was good. The best this week! But my dad sort of over-ordered. We got about 7 dishes for a family of 5. its nuts. When I went home, my bro went to watch Rambo 3 but I didn’t accompany him cos I was talking to my pal and later now, talked to Markus. Sry zac. The day ended early cos I was freaking stressed on things, maybe im being paranoid, haha. But seriously, I kept thinking what I could do to make things right.
I went out, alone in the courtyard. And something happened… something just happened. I was crying for the lord. ‘‘Why would you do this to me? Things have been going real fast, too fast for me to handle. Why did you still do nothing about it? don’t you see im lost, don’t u see i need help? I thought helping people would be a good thng but I WAS WRONG. I was sooo wrong. Lord I need u to teach me what to do. Show me your way! For your worthless sinner, servant is confused and had gone astray. Do not let these distractions take me away from you. Show me what youre trying to do! Im gonna lose a lot, is this what u planned for me? Lord, hear my cry, hear my sorrow. I need an answer lord! .… I just need an reply… a message… anything. Lord is this your will? Lord! Is this your will?! Is this it?!!!’’
I was practically crying. I know I sound like a baby but I was crying cos I wanted an answer so much… then… 4 words came to my head. Just 4 words, ‘be still and wait’. I looked up. What the heck is he talking about? Im felt like dying and u said just wait? 4 words came again, ‘be still and wait’. I heard them so clear even though they were so soft, like whispers in my head. I closed my eyes, I had nothing left to say. I went back to bed. The reply was 4 words but I got 4 lines to say. ‘‘So be it. Whatever that have happened, and whatever that is going to happen. I will still love u no matter what.’’

Saturday
Oh great… I woke up pretty early. During breakfast, there was the joke of the day! haha, made by my family. This is what u call ‘misunderstanding’
Dad: okay, we got to get u a new air pot.
Me: err, pa, u cant give mum a new airport…
Dad: no we got to get mum a new air pot.
Me: err… no we cant get a new airport, its so big.
Mum: no no, an air pot.
Bro: what an airport?!
Mum: no no. an air pot. A-I-R P-O-T.
Me: oh , oh OH! An air pot.
Sis: so when is mum going to the airport?
Dad and bro: ai yo! Mum needs an air pot, not airport.
Sis: airport? Where is she going?
Mum: no la girl. U know the hot water dispenser. Thats an air pot.
Bro: wow jie! Slow say!
Dad: ya la! Don’t be so blur can?
Sis: how should I know?
Dad: whoa, u joker. Joke of the day!
Me: hahha… joke of the day…
All: *laugh*
I wanted to do Chinese hw but what the heck, I wanted to bring the dog out for a walk also. so nvm, hw do later, hahaha. In Maths, I did some graphs and more graphs, oh yea! I did part of the specimen paper also, lol. okay, this is not important, I’ll skip it. my dad followed us for lunch. We bought lunch back, the food was nice but I cant stand too much chili, ahhh!!! My mouth is burning. Lol. so we watched Rambo 4 after lunch. Still don’t wanna do Chinese hw. Only after the movie, then I start doing the hw. Crap, im so lazy. We end Chinese tuition early cos my teacher was also tired since she had been teaching the whole day. Wanted to update my blog but there was no time and there were a lot of things to write about. I bet this post is gonna reach 2000 words again, haha. Then I went out to study with Markus, my bro also followed. We didn’t actually eat dinner cos we’re so full due to heavy lunch and breakfast. I ordered for Ice Chocolate. It tasted dam sweet. So sweet until I got stomach ache. Omg! My bro kept talking. So we didn’t actually do much. Out of 2 hours, I only finished my compo and Markus did a foolscap paper of notes. That’s very little.
We were talking about out lives and our thoughts of goals. I wanted to continue talking but the bus arrived JUST on time(when we reached the bus stop, the bus came) we went back home and heck! My dad forgotten to bring the dogs out, and it was alr 11. oh gosh. Now I feel me and my bro are like maids and mum too felt like that. But what to do? He’s my dad anyway. I just fell to bad and slept cos I felt dam tired. My mind had alr given up due to countless stress from people and things. I don’t plan to rmb much on that day.

Today
Today was extremely great! It really made my day. Markus argeed to come to my church. How cool is that! Cheers* I was so happy. Breakfast was superb. The worship was intriguing but I didn’t have voice to sing so I sang pretty badly. I cant even sing Saviour King. Oh gosh. So anyway, the sermon was… funny as usual. I bet Markus liked the pastor too :D he’s so funny, lol. the way he talked… just so entertaining. Markus had lunch in my grandma’s house. We played chess, lol! we joked a lot and enjoyed ourselves. I was surprised when my mum’s friend is actually one of Markus’s neighbour. Wow! The earth is so small, right? Lol.

evening sky, can u find the balloon? :P

Markus and my sis

blurry... josh and zac

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I thought of asking some friends out today but they were busy so I gotta respect their decision. So since I was pretty much free, I can watch movie with my bro. we watched Romeo must Die. Then I rested and watched Quarantine. Omg, two movies in 1 day, haha. We went out for dinner as a family but without my sis cos she gotta worked at the bubble tea. Haha how ironic… well, at least its convenient cos I can buy bubble tea from her whenever im free. Anyway, today is a short day since everything felt so good. Nothing much to write about…haha.
Movie Review- Romeo must die Rating- 8.7/10
The only things I know about this movie, Actor Jet Li and producer of Matrix(Joel Silver) other than that, I know no one. The movie is a pretty good movie but its not really intense like Kiss of the Dragon. Jet Li looked so young. Its still strange hearing him talk in eng. The fighting was good. Some slick moves. However, the choreography could be better. The storyline is pretty good but not exactly very good. The twist was still okay. Some funny scenes especially when the blacks tried to gang-bang Jet li. Haha, big mistakes fella! But some fighting scenes were clearly seen as computer graphics. But I must say, this movie is what inspired animations to do bone-cracking scenes. That was my bro comment. Another thing, Jet Li can never do romantic scenes, cos he doesn’t have the ‘fallen in love’ face. Lol!

PS: Fun Facts
No. of words = 2100+ words
Time to recall conversation = less than an half hour
Days to complete this post = 3__ Friday night, Saturday night, today afternoon, today night
Time to finish reading this post (according to my speed) = 25 min plus minus
Unforgettable moments = joke of the day, church with Markus, James conversation

The mid year exam is just next time onwards and im not worried. Oh shit! I just don’t know why. Why cant I be more urgent towards these things. IT’S THE MID YEAR FOR PETE SAKE. Why cant I feel anxious? Its like I don’t even care about it. why am I feeling this way? I just don’t get it….