Monday, March 23, 2009
Saw changes, learn something 10:30 PM

Yesterday
The rest of the day have been rather, unexplainable. I cant find words to describe it. I really don’t feel like doing anything. I just feel so down, I wanna sleep and hope for a new day to come. Forget about the hw, forget about play, forget about crap! I just feel like doing something, something right but I don’t know how. Every time, I turn back to look at the cat’s pic in my phone, I sorta feel like crying. Cos I felt so useless as I could have played a part in preventing its death. Gosh, I don’t know how to describe this feeling… what a day to ruin the holidays. I should have enjoyed these little things in the first place. I don’t wanna talk about it, u wanna hear it, give me a call or talk to me in person cos I don’t wanna type it out or send a message either.
I just noticed im super weak, don’t ever say im strong. I went to the Gym and exercise for 30 min. after 30 min or so, I died. My legs ached and my body was dam tired. I lost over 100 plus calories in 30 min. I really needed a bath. After bathing, I went to practice the piano. Then my piano teacher came and so on. Ok after piano class, I really felt like walking so I accompanied my piano teacher outside. Her parents were supposed to fetch her back but they made up their mind so my piano teacher was supposed to meet them at home. We walked to the MRT, talking about our lives and so on. She was supposed to take bus 14 but we kinda talked until she missed the bus. OMG! Im so sorry. So the next bus didn’t came until 20 min later, so we continued talking, she kinda felt that I was gonna leave but I thought it was best to accompany her until the bus come. I mean, it would be bad if I just leave her alone at the MRT, since she got no ear piece to listen music. Don’t wanna do anything at home when I got back so I watched Kiss of the Dragon.

Today
School wasn’t so bad today. Since I didn’t do much hw, I did some hw in the library with Donovannn, we were doing eng. We do half-way end up talking. Then I do ¾-way, then start to stone in mid-air cos I got kinda boring. Sorta of don’t feel like doing sort of thing. Then we joked here and there. Then went with boon kim and buy bubbleee teaaa! Bought some coffee milk tea, it was pretty nice. And one more thing, im so surprised I got A1 for both A maths and E maths. Now, im not trying to be boastful but what the heck?! Why am I graded so well? Boon kim did better than me and he got the same marks as me for A maths. WTH? So back on topic, as I went out, I noticed a few things amiss. Everything is changing. So I took some pic.
i didnt know there was construction on this side

why is this thing in school? oh please... enough of wasting money on such things...

Don and i were packing to leave

omg! one side of the door is missing, i wonder why...

in the library with Don


I talked on my pal again. We sort of get into an argument but it end quickly. Wanna share it again. Its about our day and confidence.
Pal: hey sam, so hows first day of school after the March holidays?
Me: well, kinda good.
Pal: well, now that’s a rare answer. I thought u either find school boring or good?
Me: yea well, but today I thought it wasn’t so bad.
Pal: ah, I see. Hows your studies been going?
Me: normal, im still good.
Pal: o…k… teaching your friends?
Me: duh, but they still cant beat me. lol
Pal: ok sam, stop saying that. U sound arrogant.
Me: where got? Its true.
Pal: really? How confident are u in your mid year exams? (or I think he said that)
Me: Ha! VERY. Top 5, confirmed.
Pal: ok, ok. Stop it. Bloody hell, your freaking arrogant.
Me: what? What did I say?
Pal: its not about your what u said. Your tone of voice sounds as if your better than others. And others cant beat u
Me: well, then how u want me to sound?
Pal: be confident, not arrogant. Say I’ll do better by mid year. Don’t say you can beat others.
Me: I didn’t say that. How u know whether whats confidence and arrogance?
Pal: how can u not know?! Confidence can result to arrogance but arrogance will not result to confidence.
Me: huh? What the heck do u mean?
Pal: Confident people will be arrogant at a certain stage, that’s definite, whereby they won the state championship or they have cracked a unsolvable code. But arrogant people are not always confident.
Me: why do u say that?
Pal: bloody shit, Samuel. Listen! Some arrogant people THINK they are smart and they ACT brave and strong. If your asking me, they’re just a hopeless person with a gun. Without that gun, they’re nothing but a pussy. If u continue talking like that, u will have no one left. And some may hate u for that. And I don’t think your that kind of person, ok?
Me: then what kind of person u think I am?
Pal: well, I don’t know. U should ask that to yourself. I cant help u answer that Qn. Your over-confidence is gonna drag you down until u start to listen. That way u wont always have to end off with a argument.
Me: ok… I get it. How can u tell whether im confident or arrogant?
Pal: simple, your tone. So its just a little more than ‘think before u speak’ that kind of thing. I know from the way u talk, many people are gonna refer to u for help, that’s definite. When that happens, you know what to do.
Me: ( dam it, I forgot what I said… I think its…) ok I’ll take it into consideration. Thanks for the talk.
Pal: no, thank you for listening… realize your mistakes, better still, learn from them.
Me: it aint that easy.
Pal: if it was easy, I wouldn’t be saying all that to u. so I’ve heard Sunday ruined your whole holidays.
Me: yea, I tell u later. Gotta go sleep. I guess you and I have another long day again.
Pal: long day? yes. How we see that long day, its up to us.
Me: always and always will be.
I took a very long time to recall almost the whole conversation. I think an hour or so to recall everything. Guess I learn something. Confidence can result to arrogance but arrogance will not result to confidence. Will keep it touch again, pal. Will be in touch real soon…

Movie Review- Body of Lies Rating- 7.7/10
Im sorry for the low score for this movie but it was disappointing. There was only 2 action scenes that caught my attention. The starting part and the last part. Other than that, it was just talking and talking. Unless you know something about business, this movie would seem boring for u. Director Ripley Scott had so much potential. The action was good. Blood was pretty nice. But if it wont for the English subtitles, I would have fallen asleep, no offence. I like Ripley Scott’s older movies. The story behind the Body of Lies is that, throughout the whole movie, everyone seem to be deceiving each other. One lie covering up another lie. The movie could have been so much better…
PS: I didn’t believe I had just type another 1200 over words again. Omg! If you all are reading this, means u must known almost every post is like a compo. But seriously, u cant blame me cos I like writing… or typing, lol!

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